During this pandemic I have continued my journey through finding out what a piece of garbage I am and how I negatively impact humanity. The silver lining is that I can finally except my fate and roll over and die for I contribute absolutely nothing in the progression of the human race and my time on earth is being spent wasting everyone’s time around me. This entire spring break I have done nothing but stay in bed or watch Netflix till 2 am, i openly practice the unhealthiest lifestyle physically and mentally possible without reaching out for aid because that’s how much of a trash human I am. This has technically always been the case but when I can’t talk to friends or at least leave my domain for 6 hours a day then it truly shows how badly I don’t want to be alive and how useless I am to this race. Now one might say that this is bad for someone but I disagree strongly, what is unhealthy is fighting against it and who you are but I have accepted this fact and with that I can’t accept a lot of things and it gives me the ability to enjoy watching garbage shows. The truest silver lining is that I can do jack all and no one can tell, like how we don’t have to go to school but we have to be in a call with the teacher but no one can stop me from going in a separate call with friends. Hanging out with friends is one of the soul remainder things that give me joy and purpose and during this outbreak these cowards have used it as an excuse to be anti-social and for someone whose mental state is hanging on by thread I can’t really say that there is a silver lining to this spicy flu that has killed thousands of people and ruined millions of people’s spring break. To wrap up this rant about how much I hate myself I can’t proudly say that completing school is not on my priorities and that if the opportunity for me to drop out and join a cult comes up then it I might just think about it.