This is my spoken word about how mental health collides with an ordinary life and the amount of sheer regret it gives you. Teenagers have started regretting things more and more with the fast pace of the world.

I used Samsung video editor

Here is the video:

Soap Mouth

 

 

what is regret?

Is regret a mistake?

M-I-S-T-A-K-E

My barely developed 11th grader brain does not get it

Get IT

Why do we make so many mistakes

Does your heart ever ache?

Do you ever feel like you would break?

Do you?

Regret I am full of it.

When I raise my voice without a point.

When I spit out words like gum on the damn concrete

With no reason

It’s like you’re a goose and its hunting season

The things I could’ve prevented if I was in my right mind

The people I could’ve saved

The heart’s I could’ve prevented from breaking

The things I could’ve changed…

Could’ve

C-O-U-L-D V-E

It’s just a word

But to me its much more than a word

Could’ve is like a creep following me around and tracking every single thing that comes out of my mouth

So close, yet so far

Trying to fail me

Trying to

Trying to make me regret my life choices

And forever be unforgivable of myself

Now I’m sitting in my room

On my bean bag which is as fluffy as baby duckling

Realizing what I have done

Realizing that I was wrong

Why did I say that?

What would it be like if I had just kept those words to myself

If I haven’t been so full of myself

Now I just look like a fool

Regret is no pretty precious princess I tell you

It’s more like a stain left behind from a thanksgiving dinner

That you just can’t get off no matter how hard you try

Better rinse my mouth out with soap of innocence

What was I thinking?

What did I think would happen?

What results was I expecting from that?

I’m confused

Why me?

So much questions yet no answers…

Come at me universe