I spoke loudly and didn’t stutter too much
2 things I would change next year are: actually making a topic, and handing it in on time.
My biggest obstacle was finding a topic, because I never actually found one. So Ill try to have one prepared before the spoken words are actually close to being due.
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How do you start something you have no interest in, how do you make a good spoken word with no original ideas? Every time “spoken words” come around I feel stressed because I know I’ll end up writing it the night it’s due only because I must and not because I want to or I have something real to say. We’re not all poets by nature and we’re not all emotional, I sit at a blank screen trying multiple different ways to word something and come up empty. Then I just end up with something like this, a no effort piece of garbage rant. Everything about it is so forced and I hate it. People say that confidence is the only thing that matters but how am I supposed to be confident when what I wrote means nothing to me. But I wish I was good at writing and I wish I could create something beautiful and that’s why I resent it so much. Because the things that make a great artist are the things that I’m not. I’ve never been artistic and when I look at the talents of other people I feel bad about how I can’t do what they do and make look easy. So here I am complaining about how I find this difficult when it really shouldn’t be. It’s not that I don’t like public speaking I just can’t figure out how to write something that holds meaning or sounds nice. But then I also think about how little my topic matters as long as it’s important to me and that’s the part I struggle with. Because I’m scared that no one will care about the things I enjoy, and so this is what I end up with. A sad excuse of a rant that I only did for the mark. But still if I have these feelings it’s likely that others do too, and I know that everyone stresses about their work; Furthermore they don’t care how other’s spoken words turn out. So we’re all just stressing over nothing so I encourage myself and all of you to just use your own voice instead of what you think people want to hear. Because in reality, Im only doing this topic cause I ran out of time and dismissed all my other ideas as stupid.