I was a salesman who worked hard every day, but I got fired because no one wanted to buy my products. I had a wife and two sons, it was a wonderful family. But both of my sons always against with me when they are getting older, my wife talked too much, and she is getting old, too. It wasn’t my fault to cheat, it is all their fault to let me cheat, but I still feel guilty about it when I go home. I wanted to be nice to my family, I wanted to make more money for my family, and I also wanted to be honest to my family, but I can’t do it! Will my family have a better life if I killed myself? Guest what, my death will bring more money than what I got now. I can’t give my family a better life, I can’t do it, but I hope my sons can. However, they don’t know me, they don’t know how I cares about them. They against me every single time when I wanted to talk with them. They are not two little boys anymore, they should get a good job same as me, and do better than me. They say I am crazy and too proud to say I am a looser, but I am not. I am not crazy, I just want to give my family a better life. I am not a looser and I am not proud either. I am not done yet, I still have a chance to make a lot of money for my family.