In English we wrote a love advice to one of the characters in shake spears play “Midsummer Nights dream”.
I know it seems that your whole life experience revolves around being loved by someone else, but the only person who needs to love you is you. Sure, it’s much appreciated when someone has deep affection for you, but sometimes it better to just take care of you. Making sure whatever you are doing with your life it makes you happy. “A woman who doesn’t lover her will settle for less than she deserves and will find herself trapped in a mess that is even harder to get out of” -unknown. If you can handle it, after everything that has happened. Then take the time to think about what you want to do; not what others want you to do. Maybe one of the people fighting for your affection is worth it. You can’t control who you fall in love with it just takes time. Take care of yourself so you can take care of someone else.