“I Hate Procrastination”
I don’t know how to start this poem
But I do know that I should not be on my phone
Looking up “how to start a spoken word”
You see, I am a procrastinator.
That means I’m part lazy, and part faker
And I hate it.
Because I feel like a traitor to myself
I have enough work to fill my shelf
And non of it is getting done.
I hate looking at the clock
When I don’t know how to start
Every ten minutes
It feels like a taunt
Watching it tick tock by
Watching your classmates walk by
Because they finished it three weeks ago
And you feel like a rock.
I hate the stress.
If you don’t know what it feels like,
Its the same type of distress
You would feel when you’re defusing a bomb,
Trying to stay calm
While the timer ticks down
But your shaking hands
And racing mind
Makes it so hard
I hate the guilt
I felt like a Gardener who lets his plants wilt
I feel like a sled dog who picks
People up on his sled
But refuses to drop them off
Even when their destination,
is just a two minute walk
Sometimes, the weight can be too much
I hate the pain,
The black circles under my eyes
My body constantly cries
For sleep, it tries
To do it in class,
I hate the lies
Because it gives you a sense of accomplishment
When you do unproductive tasks under disguise
This can’t keep going on.
I hate the fear it comes with,
The tears from the stress of why can’t I just do it
Looking up how to not procrastinate
Is not productive
But I do it anyway
And soon mum comes it to say
Time to sleep, put it all away
I get ready for another sleepless night
And another useless day
I hate the excuses,
It’s everyone’s fault but my own
Always playing the victim,
Not open to criticism
I know it’s a twisted system, but it works for me.
Even If I wanted to stop, I couldn’t
I’m too much of a chicken
I’ve always done this,
Waiting till the night before,
My bed calls for me But I ignore
Because sleep comes second.
But maybe I can finally end this Cold War
Maybe I can open a closed door
Maybe I can get off of the floor
And finally start working,
So I don’t have to hate any of this anymore.